I’m in a rut, I think it has something to do with the whole idea of the New Year and the intention of making changes. The New Year is a perfect start for me to really get going with my photography business, but to be honest, I am not exactly sure where I want to go. All I do know, is that I love photography and I have to let go of feeling like I am not good enough and just keep taking pictures that mean something to me and see where that takes me.
While I have more one on one time with Ari than I did with Eli & Zoe at this age, I am not so good at making sure that one on one time is fun for him. It is so much easier to run errands or get things done around the house when I only have Ari, so we don’t do nearly enough fun stuff. Last week he was really into his borrowed “lightsaver” and was asking me to take pictures. Finally on Friday, we put on his cape, grabbed his lightsaver and my camera and went out on a walk. I decided I was going to shoot away even though the sun was a little too bright for me. The time with Ari was priceless, he kills me a this age. He told the same joke over and over again that Eli & Zoe have been saying and laughed and laughed even though he doesn’t have any idea what it means. He told me about all the people he loved, we looked for lizards and talked about him missing Mackey. He looked at me with those big blue eyes and melted my heart. It was well worth the price of a piece of chocolate don’t you think.
I came home from our walk and when he napped later, I deleted more then half of them and spent one hour editing them. They may not be perfect to anyone else but me and that is ok with me. I even made a quick slideshow so I could share them with Todd. You can see the slideshow here. Todd asked me why I picked such a sad song, I couldn’t help it..it was in my head our walk.
He soon ditched the cape and lightsaver and tried to be cool with his hand in his pockets. He pulls cool off pretty well and looks way too old in these pictures.
Lucky for me, all I have to do is look at him from above at the long eyelashes and chubby cheeks and I can still see my baby.
I originally deleted this one because it was not sharp, but went and fished it out of my trash reminding myself that I need to shoot and keep what is meaningful to me. I’m not sure what it is about this one, but I LOVE it.